one of my neighbours r getting their home fogged
usually in msia, that happens only when there has been a case of dengue
but i tink this is a private fogging
as in they decided to get their very own personal fogging
for protection?
against the aedes mosquito
yeah am able to retain food
n my appetite is back with a vengence!
ok i shall not lament about my weight
but i seem to be hungry all the time
ok that is pretty normal
but this is abnormal leh!!!
i know tams says that i have been having that problem since schafer
but this is reli reli weird
i get hungry reli soon after meals
n i finish whole fruits
like pomelos!
which r reli huge
one of the perks of living in ipoh is we get reli reli sweet n amazing pomelos!!!
woohoo
n i absolutely love them!
my mom has been banning anything fm china
so sad la
cos i am feeling slightly throaty
itchy throat n runny nose
which usually leads to sore throat n phlegm
let's hope not this time
so soon after the inability to retain food?
which i tink is travellers diarrhoea
anywyas, so i was at the shop yesterday
n i wanted to buy quaillingou
ok understood that?
quailingou?
the black stuff that looks like lengkong/cincau but isnt?
it is herbal cooling stuff
since spore
i have been wanting to eat it sorta
ok sam loves them right?
she ignited the cravings for them
but i cant buy any...
cos they r all fm china!
n now i wanna drink pako, beancurd skin? (fu chuk) n barley dessert thing(also cooling)
n i cant cos pako comes fm china
ok then how about just fu chuk n barley
um yeah rock sugar comes fm china!
arrrgh does anything not come fm china!
nopes
everything comes fm china
even me. sorta
ok i dont come fm china
but my roots n dna is fm there lo
i am less chinese than most people i know
apart fm the fact i look one
like marc!
he is more chinese than me!
we went to loon tao one year ago, ok more than that.
n he ordered fm the chinese menu!
ok the chinese part of the menu
arrrgh
which reminds me of something some person who reli irritated me in thailand asked me
haha sounds juicy right?
it isnt a pkk mate
it was one of the advisors for the international club
i have trouble communicating with people who dont speak the same language as me
kill me already!
anyways, this person asked
do u speak chinese?
i was like no.
n pretty much our conversations wud be like that
question n answer
n worse
i asked him a question
he completely didnt get me
i am feeling reli frustrated now
n all the unrelated frustrating things r emerging fm within
arrrrgh
i am no longer flying on the 14th
cos my sis cant get her visa
ok i dont tink i have said anything on my blog before
she is going to queen mary
london
she cant get her visa done in time i mean
cos queen mary hasnt sent the neccessary documents!!!
so we go reli stressed
the only other available date to fly is 24th
n i cant do that!
i have class on the 24th!!!!
i am not the type who can just go straight to school fm the airport
ok i can always leave the stuff at home
but then who is going to bring my sis to school?
for the 1st time?
in some place called mile end???
n that was the expensive flight some more
mas is getting on my nerves
it isnt enuf that they r super ex
they had to be full!
ok that isnt reli their fault
but yeah reli frustrated!
cos they only give 20kgs baggage allowance
n then so expensive some more
then we find out we can fly thai airways
but on 17th
(sreams!)
no in flight entertainment!!!!
i can die la
but it is cheaper by rm 400 for us
cos mas is rm 4.3k
thai is rm 3.9k
for rm 400, i reli dont mind not having in flight entertainment
but there is only 1 flight
17th
n transit in bangkok
14th n 17th isnt much difference
cos 14th is a friday
n 17th is a monday
assuming the visa is being done that time
(forget sat is a working day)
so it is like flying the next day.
so it wont reli work...
anywyas, my travel agent who refuses to tell us of other flights other than mas....
she finally found another flight
by british airways
on the 20th
wat la, emergency n no flight only want to offer ba
n the good thing is
1)we can collect the ticket any time
there is no stress of collecting it NOW like the mas one
since it is a normal priced ticket n not the student fare one
which reminds me, how come someone i know got their mas flight for rm 3.8k?
har???
no fair!!!
2)since it is adult normal fare, if i want to change the date it costs rm 150. if i change date for my student fare mas.. it costs like 25-30% of the airfare which =rm 800
anyways, i am reli thankful
cos the stress of flying is over!
i have a ticket
n if my sis visa cant get done in time, we can change n get another date
at no cost
i am flying later now
which isnt reli a big thing for me
i dont reli mind when i fly
except if it is the 24th
that is a big no-no....
my next big frustration
is with myself.
arrrgh
the whole i do what i dont want to do n i dont do what i want to do thing is just frustrating...
arrrgh
am not very happy with self.
wei min asked me to exercise self control
n i totally fail.
i suppose the thing is, i cannot exercise self control
cos i dont have the ability to
in the same sense as i cannot be independent because i am not made to be independent
i can try but i will definitely fail?
maybe it doesnt make any sense
but i am frustrated with self
n it translates into the things i say/do/think
seriously i reli reli do think n believe that
no one understands
because everyone does not have the capacity to understand
we r inherently selfish people
some more than others
(had a long conversation last night on how great n amazing n self-less one of my good friends is)
but yeah we r inherently selfish
ok maybe i dont mean we r inherently selfish
i am inherently selfish
we r inherently sinful
n i am struggling
because i am fighting against it all
the inherent selfishness
the inherent sinful nature within me
many times i tell myself to just walk away
n not bother
just watch out for no1 which is me
(ok no1 isnt supposed to be me)
but then i tell myself, i cant
cos that is being selfish
n the christian thing to do is to be less selfish
but then i get worked up
because i am doing something
for the wrong reasons
simply because it is the christian/right thing to do
i know most people would disagree that christian=right
but for me it kinda is.
in this situation anyways
i get worked up because i am not doing it out of love
n then i get bitter
cos i ask myself n God
y do i have to be less selfish
when the world is super selfish anywyas?
fighting with the inherent selfishness is tiring
because i am a selfish person
but i dont want to be
n when i try not to be so selfish, i get tired n bitter.
arrrrgh
(my nose is reli starting to itch n it irritates me)
n i tink it all goes back to the question
1)if i am doing something, even if it were the right thing but for the wrong reasons, does it mean it is the wrong thing?
2)am i frustrated because i am trying to be less selfish in my own strength?
i tink the answer for both is a resounding YES!
so does this mean i shud just be selfish cos i wud be trying not to be for the wrong reasons anywyas?
arrrrgh
i tink the answer goes back to the answer for another issue i tot i had resolved but turns out maybe not totally
God is not going to throw me into a situation which He has not/will not prepare me for(btw, have been having reli odd dreams bordering on nightmare!)
n these struggles r part n parcel my growth n development
i tink if i didnt struggle, i wud be not growing, stunted development
should the situation arise such that i have to make the decision to be selfish n watch out for no2
or be less selfish n watch out for no1
i tink by then, God would have equipped me to make the decision
if i am not able to watch out for no1
i will be very disappointed n so will He
but He will guide my every step until the time should come
when i am "tested"(i dont like the word test in this context) and will be able to step up and be joyful and willing to let no1 go ahead of no2
this by no means mean i am giving myself the easy way out of doing the right thing.
this just means
i need to remember the whys and not the whats
someone dear to me said something about this the other day.
denise gan added me to the facebook fsx thingy
looks quite interesting
altho i have to say as a medic i reli dont know much on stocks
apart fm what sue told me when i was staying with her in spore.
i say fm time to time that i am in the wrong career path
i shud be in investment banking
it costs less to learn
it takes less time
u earn a lot(provided u r reli good)
can retire early in some fishing village n stay at home
sounds like a good life right?
but no. i dont tink i will be totally happy in it lo
cos i am not willing to sacrifice that much time of my youth for a cause such a financial security
instead i am sacrificing my youth for a cause which is medicine.
bleh.
not that much different if u ask me
the working hours r just as bad
i will look old n haggard
worse, i will have no money!
but at least, i will be happy
chasing that which will steal my youth
but which has been put into my heart
so am i chasing my dream?
i wouldnt put it that way
but yeah to a certain extent, i am chasing after something which is probably a desire within me i just refuse to admit.
ok my dream is to be a dr.
happy now?
yeah happy now.
i am chasing after my dream!
throughout this entire post i feel i missed out saying something that has been pretty clear
despite my frustrations, God is here n He is awesome!
EL SHADDAI is enough for me
4:18 AM
August 31, 2007
"My Joy . . . Your Joy"
LISTEN:
READ:
These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full —John 15:11
What was the joy that Jesus had? Joy should not be confused with happiness. In fact, it is an insult to Jesus Christ to use the word happiness in connection with Him. The joy of Jesus was His absolute self-surrender and self-sacrifice to His Father— the joy of doing that which the Father sent Him to do— ". . . who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross . . ." ( Hebrews 12:2 ). "I delight to do Your will, O my God . . ." ( Psalm 40:8 ). Jesus prayed that our joy might continue fulfilling itself until it becomes the same joy as His. Have I allowed Jesus Christ to introduce His joy to me?
Living a full and overflowing life does not rest in bodily health, in circumstances, nor even in seeing God’s work succeed, but in the perfect understanding of God, and in the same fellowship and oneness with Him that Jesus Himself enjoyed. But the first thing that will hinder this joy is the subtle irritability caused by giving too much thought to our circumstances. Jesus said, ". . . the cares of this world, . . . choke the word, and it becomes unfruitful" ( Mark 4:19 ). And before we even realize what has happened, we are caught up in our cares. All that God has done for us is merely the threshold— He wants us to come to the place where we will be His witnesses and proclaim who Jesus is.
Have the right relationship with God, finding your joy there, and out of you "will flow rivers of living water" ( John 7:38 ). Be a fountain through which Jesus can pour His "living water." Stop being hypocritical and proud, aware only of yourself, and live "your life . . . hidden with Christ in God" (Colossians 3:3 ). A person who has the right relationship with God lives a life as natural as breathing wherever he goes. The lives that have been the greatest blessing to you are the lives of those people who themselves were unaware of having been a blessing.
-- No author assigned in CUT
July 31, 2007
Becoming Entirely His
LISTEN:
READ:
Let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing —James 1:4
Many of us appear to be all right in general, but there are still some areas in which we are careless and lazy; it is not a matter of sin, but the remnants of our carnal life that tend to make us careless. Carelessness is an insult to the Holy Spirit. We should have no carelessness about us either in the way we worship God, or even in the way we eat and drink.
Not only must our relationship to God be right, but the outward expression of that relationship must also be right. Ultimately, God will allow nothing to escape; every detail of our lives is under His scrutiny. God will bring us back in countless ways to the same point over and over again. And He never tires of bringing us back to that one point until we learn the lesson, because His purpose is to produce the finished product. It may be a problem arising from our impulsive nature, but again and again, with the most persistent patience, God has brought us back to that one particular point. Or the problem may be our idle and wandering thinking, or our independent nature and self-interest. Through this process, God is trying to impress upon us the one thing that is not entirely right in our lives.
We have been having a wonderful time in our studies over the revealed truth of God’s redemption, and our hearts are perfect toward Him. And His wonderful work in us makes us know that overall we are right with Him. "Let patience have its perfect work . . . ." The Holy Spirit speaking through James said, "Now let your patience become a finished product." Beware of becoming careless over the small details of life and saying, "Oh, that will have to do for now." Whatever it may be, God will point it out with persistence until we become entirely His.
as taken fm rbc.org
EL SHADDAI is enough for me
5:26 AM
why mei teng got bitten by tons of mosquitoes and others didnt:
yeah, in pkk, mei teng got bitten by mosquitoes A LOT
while others didnt
while someone did say that BO kept the mosquitoes away
this is the scientific reasoning behind it
and no, it isnt cos some people have sweeter blood
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/earth/main.jhtml?xml=/earth/2007/08/30/scimozzie130.xmlbut a summary of what the article said if you r like me, lazy to click on the link and actually read it
To the mosquito some people’s sweat simply smells better than others because of the proportions of the carbon dioxide, octenol and other compounds that make up body odour.okay so maybe that person is right, having BO keeps the mosquitoes away
but not for the same reasons(no, being smelly doesnt make a person immune from mosquitoes)
Mosquitoes use three organs to smell and taste – a feathery antenna which can identify a wide range of different chemicals, a proboscis used for short-range detection and the maxillary palp for longer range smelling.
on a personal note, i am still "suffering" from the bites i got fm pkk
they still itch!!!arrrgh
oh oh oh
i am completely well de!
able to retain food!!!
woohoo
ok i have been eating A LOT today!!!
like a lot
n yesterday too!
thank God!
n i have been told i can take pics fm facebook
turns out i just have to rightclick n save
i didnt know!!!
shall go n grab pictures!!!
EL SHADDAI is enough for me
12:25 PM
August 30, 2007
Usefulness or Relationship?
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READ:
Do not rejoice in this, that the spirits are subject to you, but rather rejoice because your names are written in heaven —Luke 10:20
esus Christ is saying here, "Don’t rejoice in your successful service for Me, but rejoice because of your right relationship with Me." The trap you may fall into in Christian work is to rejoice in successful service— rejoicing in the fact that God has used you. Yet you will never be able to measure fully what God will do through you if you have a right-standing relationship with Jesus Christ. If you keep your relationship right with Him, then regardless of your circumstances or whoever you encounter each day, He will continue to pour "rivers of living water" through you ( John 7:38 ). And it is actually by His mercy that He does not let you know it. Once you have the right relationship with God through salvation and sanctification, remember that whatever your circumstances may be, you have been placed in them by God. And God uses the reaction of your life to your circumstances to fulfill His purpose, as long as you continue to "walk in the light as He is in the light" (1 John 1:7 ).
Our tendency today is to put the emphasis on service. Beware of the people who make their request for help on the basis of someone’s usefulness. If you make usefulness the test, then Jesus Christ was the greatest failure who ever lived. For the saint, direction and guidance come from God Himself, not some measure of that saint’s usefulness. It is the work that God does through us that counts, not what we do for Him. All that our Lord gives His attention to in a person’s life is that person’s relationship with God— something of great value to His Father. Jesus is "bringing many sons to glory . . ." ( Hebrews 2:10 ).
as taken fm http://www.rbc.org/utmost/index.php?month=08&day=30&year=07
EL SHADDAI is enough for me
3:29 AM
my day has been interesting
i cant seem to retain any food!!!
arrrgh
reli hate it la!
my friend was telling me about the hess test
cos i was worried i might have dengue
ok i am 99.9% sure it isnt dengue
but right, i have almost all the symptoms
ok my pkk group was doing the skit for dengue
hence the paranoia
anyways
yeah hess test
something new i learnt today!
arrrgh
reli reli cant retain food
why eat anyways?
spare me the frustration!!!
but i get hungry!
arrrgh!!!
interesting chat with my parents
my dad made a comment that once a person turns 21, they can get married
i tot it was too young lo
he said nopes
it is fine
n then i asked, wud u reli be comfortable if i got married next year???
no right?
he said yes
oh my goodness!!!
n then my mom asked if i was reli going to get married next year?
um nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
i cant believe they will be comfortable with such an early marriage
but i was calculating right
i will grad at age 24/25
assuming i do 2 year housemanship(26/27)
assuming i am super smart n desirable n get into a specialist training asap n finish it within 4 years
by the time i am a specialist, i will be 31/32???
oh dear
i would love to become a gp actually
but hmmm assuming i calculate the longest it wud take me la
oh dear, i will be super old de
i also asked my dad if i could live off him
he said yes
i was shocked
n then he said, u r already living off me
mom said, once i grad, it will all stop!
haha knew it was too good to be true
but yeah i wudnt be comfy living off daddy dearest
if this post has been wayy too long-winded
this is the summary of what has happenned in my life
i cant retain food
(however u want to interpret that)
still blessed beyond my wildest imagination
n as i said before, i have a pretty wild imagination!
God is awesome!
EL SHADDAI is enough for me
11:17 AM
God is awesome in this place
ok God is awesome everywhere!
almost well de
but not!
haha
it is affecting my tummy
i am rarely not interested in food
i still am
but lost my appetite
and even if i did have it, everytime i try to eat, i feel nauseous n something else
so i have to abstain fm eating too much food
crap!
on a more serious note
going through a somewhat weird stage
have i written on my feelings on me reaching my expiry date
i tink i have
it comes with the question
what have i done with my life?
stupid i feel
it feels like i havent done anything with my summer?
not totally true
cos i went to pkk
so i kinda did something
but somehow does not feel 100% fulfilled
but i suppose i am not meant to feel fulfilled hor?
just as i am not meant to feel completed
n at home here
things r just plain weird
got reli angry at some point over summer
cos of certain things that happenned
things of the past
issues which i tot was resolved
but i suppose they werent
many times i feel y cant i be different?
y am i this way?
but i have to reli remind myself what i learnt not too long ago
God loves me just the way i am
God made me just the way i am
God's love is to the max already
nothing i do or dont do will ever make Him love me more
i suppose i cannot reli understand(be completely convinced) of this fact
because i am not Him?
i am His creation
i am not meant to understand the creator
He truly is indescribable
since michelle told me she was addicted to facebook
since pkk
i have been going to facebook pretty often
waiting for people to add pictures!
as usual, i din bring my camera
hahahaha
n this was the new verse on facebook thingy
Ecclesiastes 9:10
Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the grave, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom.
maybe i am feeling that i havent used my life/time to its maximum potential?
arrrgh
this is just like after the exams time
i had more peace
n i had more joy when i was having the exams than after
saying that, i have to comment that joy isnt something that happens when a person is happy
joy is constant(sorta)
in the sense
joy can be present even when a person is unhappy
i need my joy back!!!
okie dae
gonna go find my ipod
sing my heart out
n hopefully find joy in the midst of doing so!
pls pray for me this time
for my health
both physically and spiritually!
God bless you!
EL SHADDAI is enough for me
2:47 AM
i am sick
i tot i wudnt be
told people who were to rest n the whole lot
the whole motherly thing i do when people r sick
n then i became sick pulak
headache
fever
internal muscle pain
i get grumpy when i am sick!
i reli do
my poor sister n family
but they r pretty used to it
they just ignored me
kinda odd to be online n chatting to people i dont reli chat with
everyone else r either busy/away or not online
hmmmm could it be someone is appearing offline???
nah, shall not bug people
feeling reli sick
but my fav drug, paracetamol has worked wonders
n am well for the time being
until the drug wears off
n then i will be back to the grumpy o me
it is kinda interesting how the mind works
cos on the way to changi, sam's mom was telling us about amoebiosis?
i hope i spelt it right
how going to 3rd world countries leave u exposed to the risk
coming home
being sick
n digestion all weird
oh dear
i keep telling my family that i might have amoebiosis
n my dad, the sensible one just ignores me!
i am getting old
n somehow i do feel like i am somewhat reaching my expiry date
ok not in that sense ms woo
but in the sense, i am running out of time to do many things
like travel n some back for summer
n just hang out
pretty soon, i will be working n all
arrrgh
where has time gone?
seriously
chatting to fel in kl
n michelle online
reli made me think about the past
like how horrible i was in sec school
ok i know some people might think in their minds, she is still as horrible as ever
i do hope i am less so though
but like yeah being a prefect reli ruined my secondary school experience
ok it was my own doing really
but who tot it wud have ended up that way?
in some weird sense, i am the opposite of who i was when i was in sec school
i used to be super busy
now i am super free
ok this is old, i have talked about this before
but one of the few things i always say is
1)i dont like kids
n wen ling says it is untrue cos i do love kids subconsciouly
2)i dont like fun
which is pretty much true cos i was always the couch potato
din like games/sports/all the fun stuff
but yeah i somehow feel like i have become more crazy
ok i have become super crazy
n sometimes lame too!
n i tink it was all cos of the people i met in cc
(mean it in a good way)
am kinda living life more
ok but i am still quite uptight
n get stressed out very easily
n another thing i noticed
which i was telling wei min in thailand
is that i have no control over my emotions now?
rmb the incident where i broke down in front of my pds tutor?
n u wud know how fragile i can be
in person n on the phone
how i havent reli been able to contain my feelings
i tend to break down in front of people
which isnt neccessarily a bad thing
except i broke down in front of strangers too!!!
like my tutor who is convinced i am emotionally unstable
the other day i was chatting with ms woo outside the temple
which we didnt enter
cos well i wasnt reli interested anywyas
n we had a reli nice chat
like those we usually have on the fon or in my kitchen
long time havent had such chats de
ok i forgot what i was meaning to say already
arrrgh
my memory is failing me!
okla, i tink what i mean to say is i have changed in the past few years
is being "emotionally unstable" a bad thing?
maybe but probably not
because i have been less able to hold stuff in
i tend to let go rather easily n early
n dont get into my moodyness n nasty person i reli am on the inside
yeaps, altho it kills me how emo i can be la
like crying at almost every movie!
arrrgh
but it is def a blessing la
n like wen ling reminded me!
thanks
God will never put me in a situation which i am not prepared to face
He will always equip me for anything which i may face
watched evan almighty
which was v diff fm what i expected
they din ban this one in msia
altho they banned bruce almighty
it was reli good i felt
made me reli think
n one of most profound yet simple quotes i got out of it is
if you pray for courage, God doesnt give you courage
He gives you the opportunity to be courageous!
which is reli reli true i tink
it is up to me to step up
n seize the opportunity which God will give me
but this does not mean anyone can just come up n push me!
i bruise easily
all in all, i feel like the hols r about to end
super sad
but at the same time, am feeling reli blessed
for all He has done
for me!
He is truly amazing
beyond my wildest imagination
n i do have a wild imagination
according to some people
ok most people
God is good all the time!
God bless you!
EL SHADDAI is enough for me
11:58 AM
funny bunny
silly toad
brilliant
chi tan ping
i know i am missing something out?
guess who??
correct-o
just got bk fm thailand
n sunny spore!!!
i know i have been mia for some time
but i had no internet wat???
it was so fun
n i am so sad now
happy to be home
ok a bit grumpy fm the lack of sleep
sad cos i will reli miss the whole trip dynamics
the place, people, environment
it was like i could reli breathe there?in the village?
haha ok i can still breathe here
but like i could reli breathe fresh air there
ok that doesnt reli make any sense does it
i tink the people who have been before will get it
but i also suppose every person's experience will be different!
met up with fel today!!!
sorry i was not my usual self
my usual noisy self that is
kinda sleep deprived!
it is so sad that i have like 2 weeks left to be at home with the family
ok i am topic shifting
i was spore (virtually for nothing)
but it was still great
got to hang out with ms woo
ms hui
ms gan
n ms goh!!!
n ms soo
n ms soh
n a lot of other sporeans
it was tremendous fun!
i rmb going to far east like 4 days in a row!
cos sam wanted to go
n i wanted to go too!
oh man!
i reli love love love, absolutely love cc
i so miss it!
i mean uni is great n all
n i am reli worried about the coming year
cos we will all(almost all) be doing diff things
like my reli reli good friends
happen to be my classmates
what is going to happen now that we r all going to do different things
oh dear
but u know what?
this is dumb
this is stupid
worrying about the future
cos it is all in His hands isnt it?
it is all going to work out!!!
i will always have ocf
n htb
n well ridgmount gardens for people to crash
n let's not forget i can always go n visit people!!!
yeah
i made reli good friends these 2 years in ucl
n i have faith that it will stay strong!
it will!!!
topic shifting...hehe
i made new friends this summer
i am the super not friend magnet
i am reli quite shy
yes i am!
dont laugh
ok
i am reli shy!!!
i dont like meeting people
but once i do become friends with people
i become reli reli crazeeeee
n scary i guess?
anywyas, yeah it was weird
making new friends i guess
cos i dont reli make them all the time
unless i have to
ok i kinda had to
but i am glad i did
well some were not exactly new friends
old friends
but got to know them better
it was nice
reli reli nice
having good young wen ling there
annie!!!
u shud have come!!!but u r in taiwan pulak!
n rosy!where r my doughnuts???(ok topic shifting again)
ok apart fm the clogged toilet
yes it happenned this year too!
n the lack of clean water
it was all great!
miss the kids
every small thing reminds me of the whole trip n the children!
there were prob thousand over pics or more!
but as usual, i din bring my camera
shall wait for people to send them over
ok days
i shall shut up for now
let ms woo do the talking for now
about the trip
n well yeah she has pictures hor???
but i reli do thank Him n praise Him for the blessings He has poured out unto me
the protection
the fun
His presence
throughout it all
He truly is amazing
n worthy of all praise
all glory unto Him
for it was all possible just cos of Him!
truly
the fun!
the people!
the great friends i met up with these few weeks!
thank God for them!
praise Him for He is truly awesome all the time!!!
God bless you in all you do
thanks for reading
EL SHADDAI is enough for me
1:10 PM
